Reading back over a blog I wrote about a year and a half ago, I appear to have made a curiously prophetic statement:

“At some indeterminate point in the future, I will find myself at a crossroads…”

I feel that is where I have come to today. I’m starting to make some big changes in my life – a small first step is getting some gigs booked with a lighting company, to think about moving into freelance work – and while it’s a little scary to think about going back to having a variable income, I feel that I’m cheating myself out of something if I don’t. I’m not sure exactly what that ‘something’ is – experience, the opportunity to actually follow the career path I want, financial challenges – but, at 26 years old, married for three years already and with a mortgage, I’m getting the itchy feet of not wanting to be old and settled before I’m ready. I still have mad flights of fancy about swanning off around the world, but when that mortgage payment looms every month, it’s not so easy to shun responsibilities. However, I want to take some risks and give myself the chance to bomb some auditions for films, and even an Equity Principal audition or two. :) Wish me luck.

And a brief postscript – I found out recently that a wonderful friend by the name of Sandra is battling cancer – originally ovarian, but now spread to her lungs. She keeps a fantastic blog at www.curlywithglasses.blogspot.com – please visit her and send her goodwill and prayers! She has a courageous and lionhearted spirit, and I know she will kick some serious ass in the coming months.